Well that was Quick

The facts:

1. Liz makes nude masturbation video.

2. Liz makes that fact known to Ryan

3. Ryan asks for said video.

4. Liz says "Ok, but don't laugh too much!"

5. Ryan is Blown Away.

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What I said was, "This is something totally new. This is like conscious art or part (porn art?) or something....just every 15 seconds was full of teachings and meaning."

makes me very excited to [help] create lots of media to show people about how to let go of shame, guilt, fear about their bodies and sex and to change the world thusly...

very important part.

Liz is at the bleeding edge of exactly that.

This was epic.

First 1000 shares.
Now this.

She is on a roll.

I was sitting in my car at the drive-thru window (don't ask shhhhh) and thought, "I have all these things I want Liz to do...meditate and journal and blah blah etc etc...But she seems to be killing it right now. Just how much can I 'control' or 'guide' growth, healing etc? How much can I hold on and how much should I let go?"

Also, how many other people should I tell to do what Liz does or similar? How do we help people do that?

Where is my shame and fear and guilt holding me back? These have been topics. It was scary to ask for and see the video for parts of me that are afraid of being called an abuser etc....

Exactly this is why this is how the healing happens.

Sidenote, I am reminded of a talk in the future where we are sitting on the stage and Liz says, "So I made this video of me masturbating and Ryan asked for it...."

My "how I met everyone on the internet" is already spicy enough... :D

A new world is coming, I tell ya!

And Liz's billion-dollar biz too.

A bold experiment

So, after learning from Mr Lemonis, I am interested in exploring transparency/vulnerability/and authenticity. Who wouldda thunk it?

Perhaps relationships can be an actual field of spiritual growth. Ya think?

Many times I just want to sit on a misty mountaintop and meditate with God away from everyone else. But, I keep getting dragged down into play with the 'mere mortals' below.

One of my favorites, is Liz.

Liz came to me in the way most people come to me. (Or should I say...cum to me!) That is, I made her cum. Horrible repetitiveness in this para.

But then, when she showed up...what is this?

Quiet. Silent. Not knowing why she was here but agreeing to pay I believe $250/mo to have me talk to her. [PS: Liz says it was $600/6 weeks]

We tried hypnosis. Um. No idea if that worked :D

We tried 'coaching'.

We tried a bunch of stuff.

Eventually, I thought, "Am I helping? What does she need? Let me send her to someone else! I am not getting the glorious breakthroughs that prove I am an amazing coach! That will not do!"

And so I did.

And she left.

And came back.

And maybe that happened a couple times.

And, gosh darn it, I just can't stop petting her!

I get these...visions. I have these...visions. And once I started peering really close, I thought, "Whoa. Serious power."

But it was hidden, traumatized, in pain.

How do I help it out?

All the king's horses...

She has been blogging some serious photography for a long time. I said (from the supermarket): Make a patreon!

She asked questions. I said, (in low voice), "No questions! Just obey!"

Must have been a convincing enough voice because she did.

And it rocks.

Then she did something amazing.

Made her first viral piece of art.

Then I told her to sell it. I'm worried she won't. (why?)

Also, I want to work with her more intensely. Which I kinda am anyway. Can you serve people amazingly by making them pay you lots of money? I have seen both ways.

She says I am smoother now.

Makes me want to dress as a mack daddy with chains.

That concept carries some energy for us already anyway.